Waking Up In Love

This morning I woke up thinking of Dave. I wished we were together and asked God how that could happen for us. I wish it could be easier than it is to be together, to immigrate into the UK or for him to come to the US. I wish he had a real desire to come here. I would like my family to get to know him like his family got to know me while I was there. I spent significant time with them on a few occasions. They really like me. I need to know if my family like him. That's important to me.

I have this huge desire to win the lottery so I can have all the resources I need at my disposal - money. I could pay off all my debts and afford a place to live. Additionally, I could easily pay for the additional education I want - MS Human Computer Interaction. I could live in England if I could prove I can support myself. The government wouldn't care.

If I did win a significant amount of money from the lottery, I wouldn't just spend it on myself. I certainly would help my mother and my brother. I'd probably even give some to my step brothers. I'm not sure how much some of them need, but I'd help them out in some ways, I'm sure. I wouldn't invest a lot at this point. The market is too unstable, but I think the investments I'd take would be more secure, like CDs and Money Market Accounts. I'd use the money to do good, to help those in need - donating to charities and research projects to cure diseases such as cancer and lupus.

With my education, I would want to start a company that creates learning tools - affordable ones - to help people learn or relearn tasks - cognitive, life skills, health information, proper diet and nutrition, etc. I would market some things to schools and some to hospitals and rehab centers.

Ahhh... If I had lots of money, my life would be easier in so many ways. But I'm sure that the money would complicate it in other ways.